This blog post has been started many times
in my mind over the last few weeks.
It is hard to find the words.
It is hard to paint the picture of the intricacy
of God's weaving in this story.
Lily and Mei were crib mates in China.
When I took Lily from the
orphanage that day in China
my heart broke into a thousand pieces.
The term heartbreak is over used.
On this day my heart literally broke.
Lily's orphanage did very few adoptions.
The likelihood was that Mei would not be adopted.
I wanted so desperately to bring Mei
home with me.
To preserve this piece of Lily's history.
To care for this child.
I've said many times once you walk in an orphanage
you are never, ever the same.
|This is my all time favorite picture of Lily.|
She was so scared of everything when we first got her
because she hadn't been outside the walls of the orphanage,
so she covered her eyes.
Then once and awhile she'd peek out to see what was going on.
You can see my last post about
Lily and Mei here.
Well through the wonder of God
Mei was adopted after Lily.
Through the wonder of the internet
Mei's mom and I met.
Through intricate weaving of God
we move across the country,
where we know no one,
and end up living in the same area as Mei's Grandma.
It had been more than a year and a half since they'd seen each other...
and eight years since they shared a crib.
But they see each other and they are instantly connected.
They instantly pick up where they left off.
There were Hungry Caterpillar tea parties...
lunch of mac and cheese...
...fierce rock paper scissors games
...and time at the park.
I was on the verge of tears the whole weekend...
because here's the thing...
we could have missed this.
We could have missed Lily...
This adoption made NO worldly sense.
First, three kids under the age of three
and two with medical needs...who DOES that?
Who commits to adopt another child six months after coming home with the last?
Economically...we won't even go there.
We know many of our family and friends thought we had TOTALLY lost it.
Here's the thing though.
We were absolutely, positively sure of God's call to adopt Lily
despite the fact that it did not make any worldly sense.
So for all of you who are in the process of adoption,
who are doubting God's call.
To those who are thinking this doesn't make any sense.
To those who are thinking how will I manage another child.
To those who are thinking where is this money going to come from.
To those who are thinking what if the medical need is too great.
To those who are thinking did I hear you right God?
Stay the course.
Trust the story God is weaving.
Stay open to seeing the miracle.
We could have missed this...